Five year plan?

(Five year plan?)Is it really that necessary to have a five year plan? The first plan i had was simple- go to college and get a degree. Done that, now what? I had some other random ideas of things to do, but haven't acted upon them yet, like: get an apartment or townhome, pay off (most) of my credit card debt, go back to school.

Essentially if you want to split hairs, I'm three years late into another five year plan.

I plead da (twenty) fif!

Since it was my 25th birthday yesterday I wanted to post up one of my favorite clips from Chapelle's show.

Ever wake up and just felt just plain-old ill? That's what happened to me this morning, just woke up feeling queasy! It was awful. I ended up calling off one of the jobs so I could rest and make it to the next one this evening. I guess it was a sign that I needed to rest a little bit.

Grads set out in more debt than their parents did

That title alone is preaching to the choir. But a lot of people (baby boomers) don't realize that. On the flip side, its a way to rationalize attending college as an opportunity cost.

My 'want' list:

this pda has wi-fi
this is a beautiful phone, plus it's a blackberry!


But really: is it necessary?

These are useful tools in business, which I now feel I'm embarking on some type of career buiding up transferrable skills in the marketing field. But really: is it necessary right now?

I would hate to drop all this money on items that I would barely use. Then again, I <3>

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

News flash! I'm not Irish! The silly part is that I'm wearing a green shirt today.

You're 15% Irish

You're not Irish. Not even a wee bit. Not even on St. Patrick's Day!

How Irish Are You?

Where has my focus gone?

It's safe to say that I'm a dreamer. I dream about all these wonderful and positively great things happening in my life. Then I snap back to the reality that I feel like I'm sitting on my hands, not the most positive of feelings. Deep down, I just want to be successful and see one of my ideas come to fruition. That entreprenuer itch is getting to me.

Facebook is an interesting animal

That about sums it the site since I've created my account on there a little over a month ago. It's nice to reconnect with old high school & college classmates and current and past co-workers. I just still have this thing about reuniting with the entire class of 2000. I used to get into discussions about it during senior year, and decided not to go the the 5 year get together, even after some coaxing from a classmate I still keep in contact with. Didn't work though.

Deep down I was not ready to resurrect some of the roughest years of my life. It seemed like so, maybe it was more teenage angst more than anything, mixed in with insecurities, passings of loved ones, and bad news. So it felt good when 6/1/00 (aka Graduation Night) arrived and I was able to say goodbye to that phase of my life. College was my liberation from that superficial and vapid vibe that is present in high school. Oooh, can't you feel the cynacism?

Anyway, Facbook is an interesting animal, because you can check out pages if the user chooses to keep it public, and look at pictures, notes, comments, post events, all sorts of things. Its a bit vouyeristic too, because you can find out info about people that aren't even on Facebook, and see who still hangs with whom, etc. etc. It can make your head spin! After I set up my account, and began searching for folks, I eventually came queasy, most likely from staring at my laptop way too long.

Don't get me wrong, it's fun to catch up and reconnect with people from back in the day but there's that risk of old (read: negative) feelings resurfacing too. And yet through all of this I'm trying to find my pic with Jerry Springer to add to the site, lol.

The Greater Good & in the Scheme of Things

Well, the title seemed good in my mind, but let's work with it anyway, shall we?

Deep down, I am an aspiring enterpreneur. Even studied it in college. All that textbook learnin' is great, but I'm looking for real world experience. Bottom line is that the only one holding me back is...well...me. I get so wrapped around the idea of fearing of the outcome, that I don't get past the inception stage with a lot of my ideas. I get that a-ha lightbulb moment, write the idea down, and then do nothing with it. It becomes an idle thought. Currently, my biggest hurdle is beginning my promotions company. Last summer I was all about helping a mutual friend of mines and getting his project off the ground. As the months went on, a lot of drama broke out, and I played my part in it and had to cut ties to refocus and start fresh for 2007. It looks nice and all promoting the company on my myspace page; past that nothing has come to fruition. Yet.

I haven't given up. I need to just calm the hell down, and stop overthinking things and just do something, and get it done.

My friend Ben is my go to buddy with all of my arts & music concerns. He understands, he's a dancer and an instructor, and owner of his own dance company. We have our heart-to-heart sessions about are artistic and entreprenrial endeavors. We went out for burgers and drinks last night, and he showed me a flyer that he was on for a dance performance he had done recently. I squealed while looking at the flyer, "Ooh, can I have your autograph?" It was just so cool to see someone I know on a flyer like that. I'm easily amused :)

But during our hang out, and during many other hang outs, he told me that I should sit down and make a list of what I would like to accomplish, no matter how big or small. Simple enough, a list; the pressure of completing items off the list is a different story. I've taken his advice and done so, but it's in need of updating. Here's what I need to include:

*throw a party for the college-age set
*kick the networking into high gear
*work with an established artist to get promotions company off the ground (floor)
*create a business plan for promotions company

Not saying that I'm in a rut, my '9-5' life has improved. The pr company that I've been interning for since last August has hired me on part time to help out in the office. That doesn't even include when I work street team events. That was one of my goals, to get hired on by the company and I've done it! That item was on my mental list by the way.

All in all I've learned I need to just put the fear aside for a moment and just be risky for a moment. If it doesn't work out, go to the next item on the list, if it works out, all the better!

Birthday Fun

Your Birthdate: July 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense. You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends. Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone. Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Funny & Strange things at work

I've been working for the public library going on two years now (hurray! longest post-grad job to date! :D ), and there are daily things that cracks me up about my job, and they are subject to happen at least once per shift:

Patron(via phone): Are you open today? [I'm thinking: No, I broke into the library so I could pick up YOUR CALL!]

Patron (in person): I would like to rent these items. [I hope that you mean borrow. Otherwise, that'll be 5 bucks.]

And then there are the strange things I can't seem to respond to:
[7 yr. old girl, mixed race]: Are you from Africa?
Me [after a bug-eyed pause]: Sweetie, I'm from Cincinnati
[and a slight answer from her grandmother I assume, who was white]: She's from Cincinnati, just like you (are).

It took me a minute to gather myself after that question, I was seriously blindsided needless to say.

Me (via phone): Library renewals, may I have your card number?
Patron: [rumbles in the background]: hold on, let me find my card. I didn't know you were going to answer so fast.
Uh, we expect you to be ready when you dial the number. Besides, there are more than one of us answering the line, and you're not the only one calling. Quit holding us up!

I could go on and on with things like this, but its every shift that I work that you get at least one person who's pretty 'unique'; that comes with the territory with public/customer service jobs. You just have to have a pretty thick skin, patience, and a co-worker close by to vent to...immediately!

Happy New Year!

It's official 2007 is (finally) here! I just about had it with 2006 anyways with all the drama and stress. This year I don't want to have resolutions that I will give up after a week, but have goals that I can manage. 2007 is going to be about enjoying the simple things and getting away from the ideal of "the bigger, the better"; becoming a more aware and mature person continously growing and learning more about my surroundings and the world; making better career choices on both the "regular" and entrepreneurial sides; being more social and keeping in better contact with friends; contnuing my quest to stay away from the "keeping up with the joneses" theory; and of course the good-ol stand by, have better eating habits and exercise a little bit.

It's crazy how your will power and patience can be tested. I love my friends like they were my family, in some cases I love them more than my own family, but like with any person you regularly interact with, there's gonna be those times where you get sick of them. I had an episode on Friday when I ran into a friend that was home from college and we were having a catch up talk, and afterwards I realized how it seems like everybody in this one circle of friends, seemed to dislike one another and how I'm caught in the middle of all the drama.

I'm tired of drama!

It's one thing where someone dislikes somebody or have a time where they're upset at a friend, but when you have someone you're cool with say to keep away from a person, then the situation is getting way out of hand! I'm not perfect, I had times where I added to the drama, and I regret it, but what's done is done. In a perfect world, everyone would get along. And what makes it so bad with this particular circle of friends, everyone was cool with each other at different points and were working together making music. So this leads to another goal for '07: work with (musical) friends when they are actually ready (have some single-worthy songs), and work with people who are already making moves (i.e. performing & pushing cd's). As much as I want to help my friends with their musical efforts, I've just about had it for now. It's time to expand my horizons and move on to network with others who are really looking for help with marketing their songs.

So 2007, like with all the new years of the past , is a time to start again with a clean slate. Time to get it crackin! Happy 2007!